This is the entrance to our new home! The downstairs is my new Sacred Source Studios playspace…so. very. exciting!! We are due to move sometime in May. Yay!
About 1 year ago, I was cleaning our home when suddenly, a voice popped into my head and said, ”You will be moving to a new home soon.”
I didn’t quite know what to make of this little message. I didn't even know where this voice came from. I wasn't thinking about a new home. It plopped into my brain from some random place. I held this message close to my heart. My husband and I began dreaming about our future home. We thought about what we wanted, regardless of limitations.
Fast forward a few months…we are building a new home. It is so exciting.. We currently live in an old farm house built in the early 1900's. While I love the look and nostalgia of older vintage homes, living in one isn't really for me. I would tell others about my desire to live in a new home. In my logical mind, I could not see how that would ever become a reality.
I retired my career in the medical field in 2019. I had undergone many surgeries and still had chronic pain in my hips, back, and joints. With these issues, I was no longer able to meet the physical demands of my career. Though it was secure and lucrative, it was no longer a good fit for my physical body or my soul, so I let it go.
Walking away from my career in the medical field was one of the hardest decisions I've ever made. This was my second career and I the thought of starting a new career path at 42 felt exhausting. During this time, I was being evaluated for my 4th hip surgery, and was also ill with autoimmune issues.
Instead of running out to catch the next available job to get us by, I took a year to focus on rest and healing. This was counter to my logical thoughts and desires. I had to learn how to surrender and receive support from others. This was something I didn't have the desire to do for a whole freakin year!
My logical brain told me that if I rested, I would have to work twice as hard to make up for the financial losses. I feared that if I took time to renew myself, my husband would resent me, and I would be a menace to society. This was counter to all the messages from others. Others were telling me to slow my load, stop fretting, and take time to rest. If everyone was telling me this, I figured it was time to start listening.
In that year's time, I learned to listen to my intuition and honor the messages that came to me on my journey. I began to have faith in the way my life was unfolding. I came to understand that my only job was to get out of my own way and tend to my desires. At that time, my top 2 desires were to heal my body, and find a new home. I didn't know how to do either. But, every morning, I met myself with a pen and some paint, and wrote and painted about it. I used every tool in my toolbox to heal and renew myself, my soul.
In one year's time, I regained the functionality of my body. I am able to move in the world again. I feel alive and vital for the first time in a decade. Honestly, I didn't know if I would ever be healthy again. It is a miracle and I'm so grateful.
Last April, my husband and I went to my mother-in-law's house to enjoy the holiday. While there, one of my relatives mentioned how a retired dentist was building a series of new homes. A light went off in my bones. I felt the need to contact him, but it took me 2 months to do so. I was shy, and I knew that by contacting him, our lives would change. I figured I better make it count. I wrote him a 7 page letter and hand delivered it. I figured with that, this man would either be sure to call us, or go to great lengths to avoid contact.
He called me 3 days later and thanked me for the "soliloquy." We planned on renting one of his homes. But the situation was not ideal. The home was 1/3 the size of our current home, and thinking of where we would put our things was rather stressful. I realized my desire to live in a new home was not quite enough so I said to the universe.. "I want to live in a new home that reflects the fullness of who we are." A couple months later we received the resources to do that!
We broke ground on our home in November of last year and are due to move in May 2020. The basement will house my business as well as my husband's glass blowing studio. The retired dentist has been our friend ever since he received the soliloquy.
Sometimes, life requires us to step into the unknown without a safety net. Sometimes, we must be vulnerable humans and ask for support. When we refuse to be in spaces that are harmful to our well-being and find the courage to ask for what we desire, we rediscover that fire in our bellies. In doing this, our relationship to life itself changes. New opportunities are born out of us stepping into something new that wouldn’t exist otherwise.
Are there spaces in your life that are no longer beneficial to your well-being? How would your life be if you decided to let them go?
If you could co-create your own life, who would you be? How would you write yourself into being?
What if support was there, waiting to meet you as you took the first step into your legendary life? Are you ready to take the first step?
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